Monthly Archives: August 2005


It’s been a few since I’ve posted… partly because I’ve started a second blog (I know, I’m a sucker for punishment) on LiveJournal, to focus mainly on my escapades into writing (see

So now this blog can focus mostly on my art, and related thoughts, while that one can focus mainly on my writing and other blatherings.

Beaded prayer pouch and ATCs

Beaded Prayer Pouch for Belle Papier Swap

I spent the day doing various art projects, completing the beaded prayer pouch and the ten landscape themed ATCs for the Belle Papier monthly exchange. I haven’t been doing any ATCs lately for the swap, so I was feeling rather bummed when I kept reading the posts about the cool cards being exchanged every month.

Belle Papier Landscape Themed ATC Swap
Southwestern Sunset, cards 2 through 5 in a series of 10

For the landscape theme, I decided to paint a southwestern sunset, using watercolor paints. I especially love using thick watercolor paper to paint a complete piece on, and then cut it up into individual cards. Tomorrow work will resume on several other projects.


Ahhh… Friday. 🙂 I love Fridays, because I see the weekend stretch out before me, and relish it with anticipation. I’ve made my to-do lists (I made them this morning over a cup of coffee) and while lengthy (and there isn’t a single mention of cleaning and laundry, but those have to be incorporated somehow, too) I’m sure that I’ll get some of it done, and some I’ll have to leave for next weekend. There’s only so much time… and my little boy needs attention too.

I also started in on a book idea. I’m not sure whether I’ll post snippets here or not at this point, especially since it’s so much in the starting phase, but I might. I’m excited about this story’s concept, as it’s one that I’ve had in my mind for a while now, but it hadn’t concretized into a story–I didn’t know how to tell the story, but I’m starting to figure it out now. I’m still flailing about somewhat, though, on getting my thoughts organized. I’ve always written from random inspiration, never using an outline. I think I will have to, this time, in order for this endeavor to be a success.

Flaking… and ensuing guilt

My “studio” space

As usual, I’ve taken on more than I should in the manic sort of way that I have, and now I’m juggling so many balls that I don’t know how I’ll manage to keep them all in the air. I haven’t figured out what this drive to commit myself to things is all about. It seems much like my relationship to acquiring things is, and I think it is a learned behavior, from having seen my father’s example. He used to stockpile things in our basement (like sugar, flour, salt) “in case of shortage” as a reaction to having to have gone without during his youth. My parents also used to buy things when they were on sale, so that they would save money, so we’d have toilet paper and soap and the like stockpiled along with the other stuff.

This “stockpiling” habit has translated itself in me into an new and *improved* way as well, I suppose. It’s given me the feeling that someday there will be a lack, so I must get as much now as I can so that I will have had enough when there won’t be any more. Perhaps it’s in my genes, dating all the way back to prehistory, when that was the way of life for all our forebearers. In any case, if affects how I handle money and also every other thing relating to possessions. I buy stuff I don’t necessarily need so that I have it if/when it becomes necessary (and I don’t necessarily buy the stuff on sale, so it’s not for a cost savings). Sometimes it never becomes necessary. Art supplies are dealt with in much the same manner. If I see something that I think I’ll end up using at some point in time in my art, I buy it and stash it. Of course, by the time it might actually become useful, I’ve forgotten that I have it, or worst, I don’t know where I’ve stashed it.

It’s time to do some major clearing out and organizing… in more ways than one. I’m doing it with our finances, and will now do it with my other “stuff.” The storage unit has been rid of, finally, but I still have a garage full of “stuff” I need to look at, as well as a little apartment that is bulging at the seams from being filled with “stuff.” Mostly mine.

Am I the only one who does this … or is this a feminine trait … or an artist’s trait? All I know is that it needs fixing.

"Ology" ATCs

My “-ology”-themed Artist Trading Cards
(Click to see enlarged view in separate window)

As promised, my “ology” themed ATCs are posted. I’ve not heard from the organizer, so I’m assuming that these are up for trade. I chose ornithology as my theme, the scientific study of birds. Click on the image above to get an enlarged view of the cards.

Weekend drawing to a close

My journal pages in Tecu’Mish’s Orange-Pink color journal

It’s always with a bit of melancholy that I see the weekend come to an end. I never get quite everything on my to-do list accomplished… indeed I’m quite impressed with myself if I manage to get half of it done.

My layout in Sue Hipsky’s Orange-Pink color journal

I’m quite pleased that I’ve at least got the two “late” color journals done, and will mail them out tomorrow or Tuesday. I still need to pack them up and get them ready for shipping. I’m on to the next batch now, which are due out the end of the month.

I’ve gotten some ATCs done too, but now I’m not sure that they aren’t too late for the swap they were supposed to be prepared for… the “ology” swap, for which I was to create six ATCs. Well, they’re ready to go, but I’m waiting to hear from the organizer to see if I can send them on. If I’m too late, is anyone interested in swapping them? I’ll post photos later this week.

Plugging away…

Close up of Sue Krekorian’s healing art doll

Well, this project has been one that’s been sitting on my shelf, “maturing.” I believe I received the doll and the journal around Thanksgiving of last year, and it was already way past the due date. I was the last of four people to work on her. I was so distraught by this doll when I got her that I just wasn’t sure what to do with it. Someone before me had added a face to the doll, but it was one I felt was at such odds with the rest of the doll that I was completely paralyzed as to what to do next. For months she sat and stared at me from my workbench shelf. I thought I could do one of two things… I could take the easy way out and just smack some boobs and arms on the doll, and be done with her… or ask for permission from the “owner” of the doll to remove the face and offer to replace it with a different one.

I ended up doing the latter, and she acquiesced. The doll sat for several more months on my shelf, as I built up the courage to remove the previous face and start on a new one. I saved the face, and glued it into the journal, hoping it will still honor the artist whose contribution it was. Today I finally started on the face, using Paper Clay as the medium. The doll is meant to be a healing doll, and the originating artist’s theme was aging and its challenges. I wanted to honor the crone (which seems to be a great theme with me for some time now), as with age comes wisdom and grace–there is beauty in age, even though we have been so conditioned as a society to overlook and dishonor it.

I hope, in the end, that I will do Sue’s doll justice, and that she will be pleased with it once she returns home to the U.K.

Another Tuesday

Layout from Tecu’Mish’s Pink-Orange Art Journal

Well, let’s see… it’s been about a week since my last post and not much has changed in the way I am feeling. Tired, mostly. I did manage to get some artwork done, but have been draggin’ bootie on getting all of my projects completed. The ATCs I was supposed to mail out yesterday are still not done, with only the background slightly painted in. I think I need to pull the smudge stick out and do some clearing out (at work, too).

The good news is, I’ve completed work in Tecu’Mish’s Orange-Pink journal, which was an old 45 record holder. The colors reminded me of India, so I went with that theme. Plugging away… slowly but surely.

Moody Tuesday…

Song that resonates today:

Dear God
as sung by Sarah McLachlan
(written by Partridge, Moulding, Gregory – XTC)

Hope you got the letter and…
I pray you can make it better down here
I don’t mean a big reduction in the price of beer
But all the people that you made in your image
See them starving on their feet
Cause they don’t get enough to eat
From God
I can’t believe in you
Dear God
Sorry to disturb you but…
I feel that I should be hear loud and clear
We all need a big reduction
In the amount of tears
And all the people that you made in your image
See them fighting in the street
Cause they can’t make opinions meet about God
I can’t believe in you
Did you make disease
and the diamond blue?
Did you make mankind
after we made you?
And the devil too?
Dear God,
Don’t know if you noticed but…
Your name is on a lot of quotes in this book
And as crazy humans wrote it
you should take a look
And all the people that you made in your image
Still believeing that junk is true
Well I know it ain’t and so do you, dear God
I can’t believe in
I don’t believe in
I won’t believe in heaven and hell
no saints no sinners no devil as well
no pearly gate no thorny crown
you’re always letting us humans down
the wars you bring
the babes you drown
those lost at sea and never found
and it’s all the same the whole world round
the hurt I see helps to compound
That Father, Son, and Holy Ghost
is just somebody’s unholy hoax
And if you’re up there you’d perceive
That my heart’s here upon my sleeve
If there’s one thing I don’t believe in…
It’s you, dear God.